A Reflection of the Year 2009

Its about 40 minutes until the clock strikes midnight and the year officially changes to 2o10. I've been sitting here thinking about the year 2009 and whats strange is that I can not really remember a whole lot of it. I know I've done things but I don't know what and I don't even smoke. Thats real sad..but seriously what I do remember is that I have made choices that I wish maybe I hadn't. I remember feeling not just alone but lonely. I remember being angry a whole lot and wishing that I wasn't. I remember that I wanted to be loved by a good man but instead of finding a new man I keep finding men from my past. I remember doing some good things at work. I remember turning 30 and feeling like this countdown clock started and I wasn't aware that I had one. I remember finding out the true meaning of the words "I don't make new friends, I recycle old ones" People that I thought were my friends let me down. I remember losing a friend that I thought I would have for ever. Yet I could not be mad at him because I understood his reasoning and I can only appreciate that he was man and strong enough to do it. Do I sometimes miss him? Yes I do. Do I sometimes wish that he would call me or write me? Yes I do. But I know that he is doing whats best for him and thats all I have ever wanted for him. To do whats best for him and what makes him happy. All in all 2009 was not a bad year but a interesting one. I'm glad for every experience that I have had and everything that I have learned. I only hope that 2010 brings bigger and better things. Happy New Year!